Some Christians would have you believe that the ability to go deeper in God revolves around you and your ability to discipline your flesh.
While it is important for us to present our body as a living sacrifice, submission is not laborious; in fact it is the exact opposite.
The trap in much of Christianity, is that we must work and be busy to show that we are “sincere” and “truly believe” or “really love” God but, God never requires us to do anything more than to submit to His leadership and be obedient to what He directs us to do.
That is quite a departure from the long laundry list of requirements some would have us believe we must do to become more intimate with God.
This is not to say that we should not pursue the Lord in our own strength and commit our efforts to growing more in love and in revelation of His will for our lives however, it is freedom from the lie that if we do not produce it in our own strength we will never see it or that we are not sincere in our hunger for more of God.
Intimacy is not a job, in fact Jesus made it very clear that intimacy simply comes from sitting at His feet rather than laboring and working to earn a higher or deeper place (as some would say) who in doing so effectively exemplify and identify themselves with Martha who was offended at the one (Mary) who did not labor in an attempt to position herself in better standing with Jesus and prove her dedication.
If you struggle with unbelief, listen to the Word of God until it becomes belief.
If you struggle with weakness and unbelief confess the truth and promises of God’s Word openly with your mouth until your heart aligns with your mouth.
God responds to our cries in weakness and desperation that are full of truth and desire, even when we cannot help ourselves.
God is not hindered by your weakness but is totally motivated by your desire. HE and HE alone can and will help your unbelief, weakness or lack. It is HE who gives faith and revelation by HIS Spirit alone. He does not need your works to give His good gifts and love.
He gives it freely. If we are so busy working trying to prove to God that we deserve more of His love, we miss out on an opportunity simple to experience and receive direct impartation of His love by HIS doing:
Mark 9:24 Immediately the father of the child cried out and said with tears, “Lord, I believe; help my unbelief!”
It is true that the mouth speaks out of the abundance of the heart, but if there is a great desire for something even in the absence of it in our heart, our mouth can proclaim truths and be empowered (quickened) by the Holy Spirit that can fill our heart in agreement, making it a truth as truth has never been before in our hearts.
Don’t wreck yourself trying to convince God and others of your belief, trust that He loves you so much that He will help you overcome your unbelief so that you can love and trust Him as your heart truly desires to.
“The Lord your God is in your midst,
A Warrior who saves.
He will rejoice over you with joy;
He will be quiet in His love [making no mention of your past sins],
He will rejoice over you with shouts of joy.